my mind is now in a whirl...
i dunno...
i know this is a process which wont last long...
but when??

i want to reverse my time back to nyjc when i was there 1st 3 mths...
i want to hang out wif 0601 again...
i want to go out every week and stay in contact wif my sec sch buddies...
will all these things still be possible later on??

i dun wanna make new frens and drift apart from my old frens...
really...
making new frens is far much easier than keeping old ones...

dis is tiring man...
i really hate it man...
i hate being in a new place...
i want to feel belong...
can anyone help me wif that??
i guess its only me myself...

though all of us have frens everywhere...
still...
we are living in dis world as an individual...
cos we think, act, do on our own...

my life hadnt been easy...
i've been through too much obstacles den e rest...
there will still be a lot to go...
all these fear im having now was bcos im afraid i will not be able to adapt my life in jjc...

whatever it is...
i hope things will be diff...
when...
sch reopens...
when..
i get support from my family? frens?

okay...
i jus try to enjoy e holidays 1st...

i will survive....