hey guys...
i wanna apologise for there are no more job vacancies for the flower arranging...
really sorry... :(
furthermore... the job schedule will be hectic during dec...

so i guess its quite impossible to have outings with u guys during dec...
whatsmore even when i plan outings ppl may not be free...

TO BLEND:
which day of next wk are u guys free?
lets have an outing b4 i start to work...
pls tag!!!
thanks!!!

oh god...
my dec holidays are jolly well gone!
work, ogl meetings... ogl camp... whatsmore it falls on my b'dae!
heck!

so i really need to get myself a present to make up for the lost holidays and my b'dae...
sad...

well well...
these are part & parcels of life...


my reply to all tags...
to justina: hey thanks!!! 0601 outing!!! yepz... ASAP!!! woots...
to jennifer: yepz yepz... hey gal... i wanna go ur hse n play piano or guitar!!! my guitar has jus spoilt :P
to zalikha: heyz gal!!! we can choose our own OG i think!!! hoorays!!! i love ya too!!! thanks :)

thanks all...
im glad dat i have many frens to fall on...

jus came back from the cldds bbq...
ya...
expected...
not many turn up...

we went heritage view... a condo near acjc...
dat place is really posh man!!!
i love the swimming pool.... :D
me, wanting and yvonne went to the pool playground to play wearing t-shirts and shorts
the security guard caught us not wearing swimsuits...
haha...
damn funny!

my dad helped me asked a job at his hotel
flower arranging...
$6 per hr...
which is pretty good... :)
its not confirmed yet...
but im pretty sure i will be getting the job...
if got vacancies il ask u guys along...
interested can tag...! :)

cool...
if its succesful il start work at 1 dec...
so i hope to go for outings before dec comes...
so hurry ask me out!!!

i want to go for 0601 outing, 06A07 outing and BLEND outings...
hee hee...
okays...
i think i need to get some rest...


I guess ppl still dun understand my feelings afterall...
and its no use trying hard to make it heard by others...

i shall start writing a diary again...
a blog is too open dat its not a place for me to pour out my feelings...

jus like caijing in the princess hours...
we're both suffocated by many things...

sometimes...
laughin or smiling couldnt wipe our sorrows away...

im tired


how i wish i can learn to leave things as it is...
how i wish i can ignore some facts or even reality...

if humans are born without troubles...

i've jus realised that for the 16, almost 17 yrs...
i live for the sake of others...
in the sense that i cared too much about what others think, what ppl think...
about ppl's situation...

but for this once...
i feel the need to be selfish...
i need to care about my own feelings as well...

i shall learn not to be made used by others of my feelings...
i need to protect them...

im jus tired of being the foolish one...

but im contradicting here...
if i really do not care about others i would have blabbered all sorts of nonsenses that i've seen...

at times, i jus need to make selfish decisions for the sake of my heart, my feelings...
if this could be so easy...

well...
i guess this is the perplexity of life...


omg...
i think i need to work...
so that i can...
1. spend time
2. earn my own money
3. gain experience

argh...
im really rotting at home...
no one plan outing...
some working..., some having exams...
ya...

but if i found a job then u all cant ask me out already!
haha!!
and for this holidays we will have no outings!!
HAHAHA!!!

well...
but if i cant find a job...
its ok....
because...
1. after graduating from jj I will start finding jobs during the post A level period
2. after graduating from university il spend the rest of my entire life working... (hence there is no hurry to work)
3. its not as if i need to work to support my family ( that will be in the future)
4. im still a student... my priority should be studies...

ah!
this reminds me that i have maths and econs holiday assignment...

furthermore the during dec, il be gg back to sch for ogls thingy....

well....
the conclusion is...
if i can find a job then i shall work...
if not...
il find something meaningful to do...
e.g pick up some skills to learn... (sewing????)

LOL

anyways...
im jus rotting at home...
im DESPERATE for outings!!!


yes!!!
PW is finally over!!!
i wanna thank last, faz and shu juan for all the hard work...
u guys have been great to work with!!!

I declare its officially holiday!!!!
c'mon ask me out...!
i guess i dont have reasons to reject anyone...
LOL

hmm...
but i would like to work as well...

my dad kept asking me whether i wanna work at Oriental hotel...
well...
i would like to work...
but not there...
I dun want to work with my dad...
its weird...
whatsmore... i dun wanna get him into trouble...
for example,
if i did something that displeases the guests...
my dad, being the chef have to be responsible...
sometimes the situation can be pretty awkward...
and i dun wan my dad to be caught in the middle...

yepz...
i would rather work anywhere but not with my family members...
friends... maybe...

i would like to give tuition to students for maths or chinese...
seems like nobody dares to take the risk...
LOL

ya...
after the whole year of hard work..
its really time to have a good break!!!

OUTINGS!!!
hmm...
seems like il have to work on my brain some more...
:D

but i mus noe when are u guys free!!!
so jus flood my tagboard!!!
;)


woots...!
tml is the pw OP!!!
yes...
our finale hurdle!!!

really looking forward to it...
i really hope it turns out fine...
yepz...

omg...
im so excited...
but 85% nervous...

i wish everyone who is having their OP tml the best of luck!!!
:)


its the holidays but i cant believe that im rotting at home...
gah...
besides eating out with my family and gg to sch...
i haven been gg anywhere...
and my mum still complains that im gg out really often... =/

i hope the holidays will be better after 9 nov...

well...
sometimes i was wondering if im the younger sister instead...
im sure il be spared from the responsibilites of an elder sister...
but what if i have an elder sister like my current younger sister...
i think il die a horrible death...
okays...
maybe not that bad...

im always assuring myself that my life is better than others...
in the sense that i have a wonderful family...
great parents who taught me realistic life skills...
ya...
i dun have problems communicating with them...
even though there may be arguments...
but we always manage to sort it out right...

i think i mus start gg out soon...
staying at home only makes me fatter...
anyone care to have a trip to gym with me??
LOL

btw
i love zoo tycoon 2!!!
woots....

ah...
i wanna get myself a job...
firstly,
it can keep me occupied during the holidays...
secondly,
i can buy my stuffs with my OWN money...
thirdly,
i can slim down bcos il be burning calories while working...
( unless my work is to face the computer for 1 whole day... hmm... probability: 0.0000001)

i think u guys will agree that i should work
otherwise il keep boring everyone with entries like this...
hahahahaha...

TO BLEND:
i guess we shall have our outing after our pw??
discuss abt e date and venue later... :)

oh god...
im boring ppl n myself...

A hyperactive person like me shouldnt be kept at home...
jus like keeping a monkey inside a cage...
but that doesnt mean im comparing myself to a beast...

blehx...
im seriously crapping here!!!
STOP ME!!!


why am i here anyway??
shldnt i be studying right now for chinese???
blehx...
now, i have e h1 bk in front of me and im flipping it through half-heartedly
duh...
il jus sleep at 10pm tonight and drink chicken essence e next morning...
these are e only things i can do for preparation of e chinese 'A's...
seriously... wad can i study abt??

okays...
went to sch today for econs and OP...
and yes!! im looking forward to OP on 8 nov!!!
yes yes...
its approaching!!!
COOL!!!
okays... il take note of my posture and il need to slow down!!! :)

aft dat went JP to buy e necessary stuffs for OP...
faz, las, rouis and I were wandering ard...
OH!!!
and i mus absolutely AGREE that both lastrina and faz are paedophiles!
to everyone: BEWARE OF YOUR KIDS!!!
Hahahahahaha.....

oh... and we oso did smth ridiculous thanks to 'lusty'...
certainly lived up to her name...
i shall not disclose wad we did... =x
hee hee...

okays... im gonna kill everyone with this long entry...
cos there is this sudden urge to write every little thing...

during econs today ms tiong said she will not be teaching us next yr...
oh... so sad...
AND I SERIOUSLY MEAN SAD HERE!!!
ya... she sounded quite sad that she will not be taking us next yr...
afterall she has taught us for 6 mths...
there is a certain bond between us already...
whatsmore... our class is such a pleasant class... LOL
and im getting used to her teaching...
if not for her...
i would not have improved so much for this sub...
all mus be credited to her dedication...
mr yee might not be teaching H2 chinese too....
uh...
thank god ms lin is following us to J2 next yr...
but there is still no confirmation whether she will still be our civics tutor...
pls pls...let it be yes... i wan ms lin as our civics tutor...
i really really like the teachers who taught us this yr...

oh... how will my J2 life be??
definitely a huge difference to this yr...
its a piece of good fortune to any teacher who is gonna take us next yr...
even currently...
i mean...
e teachers shld feel blessed that he or she taught us this yr...
really... our class has been very cooperative with e teachers... (most of e time i guess)
and we are a special bunch made up of unique individuals... ;)
although sometimes we do give probs to our teachers... esp e attendance...
i tot we are one of e nicer, if not, the nicest class for teachers to teach... :)

i might sound like praising my own classmates... but its e truth...
at the same time i oso wanna stress that our teachers are very very dedicated...
before i came to this sch... i heard that e teachers here are not as good...
but now, i beg to differ....

maybe, i would like to take this oppurtunity to thank each and every teacher who has taught me this yr...
they inject interest to my studies...
my progression and achievements in studies owes to them...
in fact, im grateful to every teacher who had taught me... including my pri and sec sch teachers...
its doesnt mean that we can only show our gratitude towards teachers only on teachers' day...
even nitty gritty things like greeting e teachers n handing in assignments on time is already a form of appreciation for their teachings...

BIG THANK YOU TO:
Ms lin (civics tutor)
Ms Tiong (econs tutor)
Mdm khoo (maths tutor)
Ms Regina Zhou (geog tutor)
Mr Yee, Mr Lee & Ms Liu (H2 chinese lit tutors)

the attitude of the teachers inspired me loads...
im considering to join e teaching career after uni...
however i would like to be an accountant too...

oops.. 15 mins b4 gg to slp...
im rambling today... oh god...
but i felt it was a meaningful entry for me... :)
my entries were never longer than this for this yr...
bcos now i have ample time... (which ironically shld be study time)

anyways...
to those who are taking 'A's n 'O's
GOOD LUCK!!!
sincerely wish everyone to get good grades... :D


i dunno y im looking forward to thurs' OP in front of my classmates...
haha...
maybe is the practices dat make me feel much much more comfortable...
or maybe my confidence level is back to 100%??

ya...
i guess being a leader somehow help in gaining confidence...

bcos thru'out this yr i was constantly complaining of how uncomfortable i feel abt myself...
ya...
before this ogl thingy i was like a rectangular block trying to fit into a cylinder...
i guess im meant to be leader...
i mean...
i really enjoy serving e others...
even though e orientation camp haven even started...

anyways... i can somehow imagine how il fair during e OP
il jus need to believe in myself!
ya...
and 1 very impt factor... SMILE!!!
thats my forte!!! hee hee!!! :D

yes!!!
im really happy with everything now...
holiday is really amazing...
this break serves as a springboard to achieve my goals... :)

and...
being optimistic is really impt too!!!
im ready for eveything now!!!
BRING IT ON! man!
whoo!!!