Well......
summing up this wk...........
its a mixture of ups n downs.... gd n bad.... happy n sad

my dad got admitted into SGH on fri...
he was sent there by ambulance during working time....
for aft several blood tests n scans...
the doc say his heart is working normal...
so its not e heart prob....
its jus e prelimary checks....
tml e cardiologist will follow up on him...
so for now its only e gastrial prob.... a stomach infection....
now he is a lot better.......
god bless.......

i noe it does certainly have smth to do wif me........
i made him worry bout me.......
he was worried that i could not take a blow of not getting into NIE
he has a heart prob but yet i added pressure on him.......
uhs... im so unfillial..........

im gg thru a rough patch...
but i noe i need to go thru it bravely...............
we have made a new decision... we are not selling our hse already.......
we have tot of other ways to clear my dad's debt prob...
and wif his health.... its not feasible to move oso..............

yea... dun worry my frens....
im more positive now
tml is my last day of work :)
things are turning better.... and im sure it will

im lucky that i have my frens to fall on...
thank u blendmates..... i love u gals loads :)
thank u wj for ur understanding :)


I suffered a huge setback today:
My offer for NTU's BA(edu) was withdrawn...
bcos i didnt clear my ept test b4 May

I know during e uni admission thingy that application for e course requires us to clear e test b4 a deadline
but natural instinct from e students,
if u wasnt sure of a place in e course y would u sign up for e test?
and e test isnt free....

okays.... maybe i was partly wrong dat i didnt sign up for e test asap after application
but if thats e case why MOE asked me for e interview?
and e interview comes only in late May....
wad can i do abt e ept test thing?

okays.... yes MOE did remind me abt e ept test during my interview again....
but i rather they reject me aft my interview...
aft gg thru e interview, getting e offer letter.... n completing all e paperwork....
withdraw my place easily bcos of a requirement that they need to comply...

its easy to say... 'oh u can take ur A lvls again den sign up for e course next yr...
or try writing to MOE to appeal for another teaching course...'
bcos they weren't e ones my in shoes....
try getting a key of a ferrari but it exploded in front of ur face...................
e feeling is equivalent to it............
on e verge of attaining smth but lost it at e last moment...........

tears rolling down my cheeks in a heavy rain with gusty wind jus sums up my feelings for e morn

i wanna apologise n thank my dearies xy n siew at e same time for their accompaniment for lunch today
they made me feel a lot better
but i made em worry instead.........
to shy shy too..............
to shu: sorry that i didnt tell u bcos i dun wanna affect ur exams =X
i dun wan my friends n family to worry bout me....
im stronger thru this episode already..... =)

things happen like this.......... n there will def be more ups n downs in my future ahead.......
i wont be defeated so easily!

actually i was oso puzzled y i couldnt take things as lighty as b4.....
i've met a lot of bad situations too.... but i overcame em easily n cheerfully.......
i got thrash thoroughly this time.......
maybe my mum was right too....
i placed too much hope on it as i got rejected by other unis................................
hence naturally e disappointment will be as huge as my expectation...............

as wad my dearies have consoled me....
there will always be a way out at e end of e day........
thus i wont give up!

and i've always said........
when u lose smth.... u're bound to gain smth back
tho i lost a place in NIE... but i've gain e love from my family n friends... which is more den enough for me!
thank you dearies once again!
il braced up and face this obstacle with valor :)


yes!!!! 5 more days of work only!!!!
hee hee hee!!!!
den i shall be a full-time slacker for 3 wks!
:D

i shall be enthuchua again!!!!
enthusiastically planning outings!!!!
=D

hiyak hiyak

i wanna do a lot of things!!!
i wanna get a new hairdo done
i wanna get my own new laptop- Sony Vaio!
i wan more outings wif my blendmates!!!!
=D

im so.................. looking forward to 30th May

buddies u shall wait!!!
enthuchua will be back!!!!!!!!!!


Im having a headache for 2 days already..................
its tension headache......
e doc suspects that i may have overstrain my eyes or having too much stress from work...
i guess its e latter....
i think i knew it myself too...

i thought im an iron lady...
but that was not e truth...............
i broke down today.............
i couldnt cope with e overwhelming emotions n workload........
this was e 1st time i ran to e toilet n hide to cry...........................
i dunno y im facing difficulties coping wif pressure today...........

i overcame immense pressure from 2 major exams, O n A levels
but this time rd i could not cope wif e pressure from work...........
i know smth is very wrong wif me at e moment.............................
i know if i con't to bottle up i may suffer from depression

my mum suggest that i should stop work now....
but since there is only 1 more wk of work...........
il jus grit my teeth n hang on there......................
il take more care of my health too.....
il not let my loved ones worry for me......

Xue ting jia you!


hmm................
my blog seems pretty dead so im here to sort of revive it...........

i dun really noe wad to add in here..........

okays..........
yippee!!!! my job is gonna end real soon!!!
30 june.....
2 more wks??? =D
den i shall have a break!!!!!

and orhs.....
i've accepted NTU Arts (Edu) course...............
so to those who will be gg to NTU as well........
cya soon yea??? haha

lastly........... something gd is in e making hahaa....
well... i dun wanna pin so much hope for a fruitful ending....
i jus wanna enjoy e feeling dat we're having now =)
ahhahaahah i think e lazy bum wont see this entry cos he dun view blogs.......

anyways.............
im off to slack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!