All my buds have started sch... or already schooling...
whereas im trying to kill my time off........
trying how to spent my 4 mths of waiting for uni life........

now, i geniunely feel e pain of losing em.......
everyone is getting bz........
i noe i cant hold on to em 24/7.........
i cant be so clingy...............
im such a baby gal rite???
ahahah maybe bcos im e youngest in e grp..........

anyways...........
dun worry bout me...
i noe how to spend my days fruitfully....
il only be worrying bout how's e life of my buds...
some of em have family probs...
some have enormous sch work...
i jus hope they will come to me to share their probs...
if i could help il def do so..........

its perfectly ok when i needed someone most they're not here for me...
but when they need me i must be there for em....
thats a promise that i've made inside my heart since e day our friendship blossom...

i used to be v enthusiastic...
now sometimes i can be enthu...
but maybe a few years later il lose e zest i used to have.......
no matter how much i have changed or will change....
my heart towards blend will not waver
nowadays we often joked that we will sign e 'breakaway' agreement...
however if there is a 'together forever' agreement il be e 1st to sign it =)

i would wanna take this opportunity to apologise to my buds...
my tone is pretty harsh these days @ msn...
instead of entertaining u gals i complain a lot... due to my mood swings
yepz... really sorry bout dat... its smth unforgiving........
cos i shld have controlled my temper better.....
once again sorry for that!

honestly speaking im not an ideal fren dat u would wanna have.....
but i'l always try to be e 100% perfect fren u wan........
i have my flaws def...
il alter my shortcomings to be a better n caring n more sensitive towards e feelings of my buds

cos im really really really afraid of losing em...
its ok to lose a bf or many bfs........
but e pain of losing a gd fren comes even greater den getting hurt by a guy...
n for me...
if i lose blend... its not only 1, but 4 really gd buddies.........
i dun wanna get pierced in e heart 4 times...

i noe im v v emo n sentimental...
but this is e only thing that i wont change......
cos since e day my buds knew me they shld know dat i can be a v emo person...
haahhahahaha

actually i wanna write a super emo letter to em during clique day....
to show how much how much i treasure em dearly...
i did try to do so but in e end i still crap in some lil jokes to lighten up e mood...
cos i noe they're more optimistic n happy-go-lucky ppl...
so it will be cruel to make em cry
i opted to go wif their natural characters instead....... :)

sometimes i kept thinking of a stupid, foolish... but yet realistic thing...
which is....
wad if 1 day i left this world earlier den e 4 of em???
i thoroughly tot thru it b4...
n this is how i want it to be...
its impossible to ask someone not to grieve over e lost of a love one...
so il only want em to be sad for a day......
den afterwards they mus always be crapping n laughing in every outing........
hahahaha....... they mus appoint a new person for e planning of outings...
'Blend' mus continue........ e outings MUST continue........
den they mus take pics of places they've been to.......
so that they can show it to me at my graveyard.....
LOL
if they go kbox they mus help me sing S.H.E songs oso... ahahhaah! even though they may not like it......
jus 1 song will do... ahahahaha!

dun worry ppl im not thinking of smth foolish.....
i adore life much more then many of u do...
cos i know e importance of love, treasure n cherish......

to end of this entry.......
i wish that my buds enjoy everyday...... looking cheerful
bless em happiness n strength to withstand any obstacles...
=)
i love u gals




the 5 of us!!!
im planning an outdoor outing v soon!!!!