how i wish i can learn to leave things as it is...
how i wish i can ignore some facts or even reality...

if humans are born without troubles...

i've jus realised that for the 16, almost 17 yrs...
i live for the sake of others...
in the sense that i cared too much about what others think, what ppl think...
about ppl's situation...

but for this once...
i feel the need to be selfish...
i need to care about my own feelings as well...

i shall learn not to be made used by others of my feelings...
i need to protect them...

im jus tired of being the foolish one...

but im contradicting here...
if i really do not care about others i would have blabbered all sorts of nonsenses that i've seen...

at times, i jus need to make selfish decisions for the sake of my heart, my feelings...
if this could be so easy...

well...
i guess this is the perplexity of life...