I suffered a huge setback today:
My offer for NTU's BA(edu) was withdrawn...
bcos i didnt clear my ept test b4 May

I know during e uni admission thingy that application for e course requires us to clear e test b4 a deadline
but natural instinct from e students,
if u wasnt sure of a place in e course y would u sign up for e test?
and e test isnt free....

okays.... maybe i was partly wrong dat i didnt sign up for e test asap after application
but if thats e case why MOE asked me for e interview?
and e interview comes only in late May....
wad can i do abt e ept test thing?

okays.... yes MOE did remind me abt e ept test during my interview again....
but i rather they reject me aft my interview...
aft gg thru e interview, getting e offer letter.... n completing all e paperwork....
withdraw my place easily bcos of a requirement that they need to comply...

its easy to say... 'oh u can take ur A lvls again den sign up for e course next yr...
or try writing to MOE to appeal for another teaching course...'
bcos they weren't e ones my in shoes....
try getting a key of a ferrari but it exploded in front of ur face...................
e feeling is equivalent to it............
on e verge of attaining smth but lost it at e last moment...........

tears rolling down my cheeks in a heavy rain with gusty wind jus sums up my feelings for e morn

i wanna apologise n thank my dearies xy n siew at e same time for their accompaniment for lunch today
they made me feel a lot better
but i made em worry instead.........
to shy shy too..............
to shu: sorry that i didnt tell u bcos i dun wanna affect ur exams =X
i dun wan my friends n family to worry bout me....
im stronger thru this episode already..... =)

things happen like this.......... n there will def be more ups n downs in my future ahead.......
i wont be defeated so easily!

actually i was oso puzzled y i couldnt take things as lighty as b4.....
i've met a lot of bad situations too.... but i overcame em easily n cheerfully.......
i got thrash thoroughly this time.......
maybe my mum was right too....
i placed too much hope on it as i got rejected by other unis................................
hence naturally e disappointment will be as huge as my expectation...............

as wad my dearies have consoled me....
there will always be a way out at e end of e day........
thus i wont give up!

and i've always said........
when u lose smth.... u're bound to gain smth back
tho i lost a place in NIE... but i've gain e love from my family n friends... which is more den enough for me!
thank you dearies once again!
il braced up and face this obstacle with valor :)